Friendship

💗 Day 63
Feel the real hurt, friend
Let me hold you close, friend
Give me the privelage of holding your "too much" hurt so you can stay on your path, friend.
I love you as you are.
Your silence.
Your sadness.
Friend,
you don't scare me.
I see that you are alone, but I will walk beside you.
I feel your ache and know it's real.
I see you trying- please stop, you don't have to right now.
I don't have to 

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