A Life Worth Celebrating

What Defines Birth?: The reality and confusion of miscarriage. 
 
A physical being emerges. Eyes, ears, nose, toes. Heart beating or heart stopped. 
Society's need to define life and death in specific terms is a pathetic attempt to minimize the hurt experienced after loss. The need to medically define life, death, and viable, can easily deny women the privelage of being able to acknowledge the birth of their child. Unless of course the physical being is breathing and living as if garunteeing that life is permanent and then only worthy of celebration...when neither are indeed the truth. 
The truth is that breathing life is not forever, and breathing life is not the only reason to celebrate. 
Miscarriage by basic definition is when a woman loses her baby before 20 weeks gestation. By real,maternal definition it is when a woman looses her hopes, dreams and identity. The process of a miscarriage can occur at home, in the hospital. The reality is that the process is painful, traumatic, and can occur ANYWHERE. 
When a woman who wanted her baby so very much loses her baby before 20 weeks is defined as a "Miscarriage". Moms who become moms through a miscarriage or who are growing their identity as a mother through miscarriage don't get many options to parent their children. They have to quickly redefine their parenthood. They may only have a few moments to determine what to do when their child is born. Can we define our miscarriage as a birth? " The emergence of a life from a mothers body". While society argues over what is life, choice, and who gets to decide. I will be over here fighting to make sure that I can have the respect and validation for my experience and ask that my CHILD whose heart was beating inside of me and stopped beating inside of me be able to be considered as born. Celebrate her please. Aknowledge her as someone who means something.  Do not abandon her. 

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